As I have been cleaning and going through all of my belongs and disregarding many things.
Kinda of feeling over whelmed!
I am discovering that my emotions are raw.
Everything attached with an emotion.
Whats that about!?
Just toss it Beth!
You haven't seen it or used it.
You don't need it!
Get rid of it!
Not so easy!
So one must have a great attitude.
Especially when the neighbor's come looking through your discarded stuff that you are going to take to the donation center.
A little irritating!
Not that they want it!
They just kept hanging out like vulture's.
And I cannot get anything done!
Which I would rather give to someone I know or who needs it!
Which I really like doing and prefer to do.
So it does work out nicely that way!
But really folks!
So you see it is a bit stressful here as we continue with the on going saga of the garage and storeroom.
Which I closed out today!
One burden handled and off my plate.
To move a lot of ones life either out totally or re-organize it in a fashion that is easily accessible.
Is a huge under taking and a whole lot of work!
So many things are connected to a time period and emotion and feeling that was happening at that time period in my life.
Amazing how that is!
Makes you wonder how one survives.
I'm also discovering it is very freeing as I let go of this stuff.
Much of of it is a life time of living, memories and dreams some accomplished some never completed, and junk that no one would most likely would want but me.
Letting go of dreams I think is one of the hardest parts, even the items connected to a wonderful time and memory is hard; a life time of love, hopes and dreams and family.
It is very hard but seems to get easier each time I go through it.
Its like okay it is time for someone else to have this dream.
I can move on now.
It was fun!
I see more and more I just want to say goodbye too all the things that I feel are holding onto me.
Which I feel are holding me back from something greater and grander!
It is a very freeing feeling.
But of course we really haven't hit the really hard items yet. Those items that makes a family and home. picture's, linens, china, nic nacs, etc.
That is what I keep telling myself.
Let it go let someone else have these and use them and make a good home for them.
Build their dreams, hopes, home, family and desires.
As we head back out to the garage with a fresh out look and attitude towards cleaning and De-cluttering my life.
Maybe just maybe it will be easier than the day before.
As I'm being set free and not being held by things.
Hard but .....
So worth it!
So as I work in today's mess just maybe Beth will find new freedom along with great life lessons.
The memories and joys will always be with me in my heart and memory as I build and make new ones.
As I De-clutter and re-organize my life into manageability.